I’ve always been a little bit volatile, my responses to things that bother me have always been highly emotional. I used to be in control of those reactions but not so much anymore. Thats partly why I prefer to write my posts rather than make videos because it gives me a chance to draft and check my writing. Often a first draft is very emotional if its something that I’m passionate about and I can often comes across very angry. I used to be able to let things that bothered me just slide and I was better at letting go of things that just don’t matter, but I’ve noticed lately that I’ve been getting very ranty and negative, especially online. I used to try and keep my responses at least partially measured and thoughtful but lately my attitude has been “I’m over being nice”.
The problem is that I let things bother me now that would never have bothered me before. Small slights, Facebook posts, and all kinds of horrible things that people do set me off. Is it a personality trait coming out or is there something more to it and have I allowed myself to get swept up in cancel culture and the current climate of combative opinion?
Today I shared an Instagram profile about all the Karens who are making idiots of themselves. It’s a collection of all the worst videos of these people. What they are doing is horrendous and I immediately shared it. Later as I was walking to the shops I was reminded of an episode of The Orville where they visit a planet where there is no judicial system, everybody gets judged and sentenced by social media. People wiht poor ratings miss out on services and if you get judged really badly and you get lobotomised. It bothered me, although these were terrible people saying terrible things, that I was part of the mob, observing, sharing and sentencing. These people should be shamed but I don’t like mob justice and who am I to decided these things anyway?
Earlier today I rather abruptly responded to friends facebook post. It wasn’t even that the post was bad, I just popped a gasket and blew up. I ended up deleting the post and removing myself from the room. I worry that I’m turning in to a grumpy old man. My friends have even said it. I used to be so positive and easy going but now I allow things to trigger me that wouldn’t have in the past.
What’s going on?