So it’s been a while since I last spoke to you about my depression and how I am feeling. The journey still continues and I am happy to say that things have been going well. The strategies that I have been using to keep myself from spiraling have been largely successful and my state of mind has improved dramatically over the past month.
Work has been a big factor in my improved self-esteem. As things get busier and I begin to feel a sense of accomplishment again I am spending less and less time thinking about the things that triggered my depression, like failures and missed opportunities. My pending move to the UK is also very exciting and once again I feel like things are moving forward.
I’m not cured, but focussing my mind on being well has made it much easier to deal with the tough times. The things that were getting me down are slowly turning around. The trick now is not to find new ways of sinking back in to that comfortable malaise of self pity.
Keeping busy has been one of the keys to keeping myself from feeling depressed. Not sitting on my ass and thinking over and over about things makes all the difference. So working out, riding the bike, work and keeping busy around the house have become my best friends. I’ve been feeling a little isolated out in the suburbs too so catching up with friends and spending more time with my housemates has also been important.
There are still things about my new lease on life that trigger my feeling low. Worrying about being able to get tot the UK, about the whether I am up to the task of making a new life for myself etc etc. But I keep reminding myself that I have managed it before when I moved to Sydney and that I can do it again. The uncertainty is scary but less scary than how I felt at the end of last year and I am serious about not allowing myself to reach that point again. They are things that I have dealt very well with in the past and so I am having to rediscover that confidence.
So things are definitely better and although each day brings it’s own challenges I’m feeling very capable of managing myself well again.